future-barbie asked: pleasseeee come back and finish "when two worlds collide"! its honestly the only thing that keeps me waking up every morning, knowing that i get to read it. now im finished, and i need to read more! PLEASEE! i know how much it means to a lot of people, and if you finish it, it would mean more than the world to me <3 its amazing. you are an amazing writer. you serioiusly shoudl consider becoming an auther one way:) xoxo, ella! <3

it means a lot to me that you enjoy it so much! this honestly made my day (: I want to get back into my stories but life has just become so busy for me I never have the time :(

sparklyy-swag asked: Your stories are absolutely amazing! I just spent the last couple hours reading them. WOW!

thank you! i’m glad you enjoy them (:

luuvies

My apologies for taking so long to continue my Bieber love stories :( I feel like a stranger on tumblr, ha I haven’t been on in literally forever. Life has been crazy lately and I haven’t had enough time to write.. but I’m going to start to continue my stories again! However, I don’t have enough time to continue ALL of my stories right now, so if you guys could tell me what you wanna read more of, i’ll be sure to start up on it right away :) 

love you guys <3 xoxo 

i’m back…

should i post more chapters to my bieber love stories..??

Chapter thirtyeight- Hello Hawaii.

“Give me a kiss sweetie” your mom says to you as she holds you tightly. You squeeze your mother as if you’re never going to see her again, you know you’re going to miss her while you’re away on the cruise with Justin. As you let go of her, you reach down for your suitcase and begin to pull the metal bar as you walk away from your mom, towards the airport check in. You turn around one last time and blow your mom a kiss. //////// Justin had some things he had to take care of before he could go on the cruise, so you just told him to meet you at the gate. The sad feeling of how you’re going to miss your family starts to vanish and a feeling of excitement begins to grow within you. This cruise was going to be amazing. I mean a ton of celebrities, being with your boyfriend all spring break, luxury cruisee- what’s not to be exciting about? //// You have now gotten through airport security. You take a seat at your gate, and look around for Justin’s familiar face. Suddenly you feel someone grab you from behind and wrap their arms around you. Within a second you already know who it is- Justin. His touch is so familiar to you. Justin then presses his lips against your cheek. “you excited baby?” he continues pecking your cheek with little kisses. “Hell yeah babe.” you say as a smile appears on your face. You turn facing towards him and wrap your arms around his neck. You look into his eyes as the two of you smile at eachother. It was moments like these that made you realize how beautiful love truly was. You give Justin one kiss on the lips, and then take his hand. You lead him towards to empty seats nearby and sit. Justin is playing with his phone, probably on twitter, and you take out your phone to see if your ‘best friend’ texted you. You texted her telling her you were going away all spring break on the cruise with Justin hoping to share your excitement with her, but she hasn’t replied. She’s been so busy with Dylan, the two of you are practically strangers. This makes you sad, but you know friends come and go, and life goes on. //////// you and Justin have now boarded the plane. The plane took off about an hour ago, and you’re feeling tired. You’re not the biggest fan of plane rides, so you try to sleep. ////// You open your eyes and look up to see Justin’s eyes shut as he leans on his arm. His other arm was around you, and your head was in his lap. He’s so beautiful, and so perfect. Without knowing it, you smile as you examine each and every one of Justin’s perfect facial features. You gently run your fingers through his soft hair, trying your best not to wake him. As your fingers graze through his hair, his eyes slowly open. Justin then looks down and smiles at you. You pull his head down to yours and give him a long kiss. Justin’s tongue wanders along the edges of your lips, trying to make entry to your mouth. You giggle and pull away. “Not here baby!” you say to Justin with a smile. Justin then smiles as he strokes your hair. “Sorry you’re just too damn irresistible.. but I guess we are gunna have a lot of alone time on this cruise, huh?” Justin says with a wink. You giggle and pull him in for another kiss. As you pull away you hold his head near yours. “I sure hope so baby..” you whisper into Justin’s ear, trying to sound sexy. “I want you all to myself these next weeks..” you continue before he responds. Justin then gives a fake laugh and smiles at you. You pull away slowly confused by his unsure response. “What’s wrong..?” you ask Justin as the smile on your face vanishes. Justin then smiles and puts his hands on your thighs. “Nothing at all baby! But I hope you won’t mind that Chaz, Christian, Ryan, and their girlfriends are going to be coming on the cruise to… I hope that’s okay…” Justin says in a worried tone, as if you’d be pissed that he invited his friends on the CCG luxury cruise. It’s cute how much he cares. You give him a reassuring smile. “That’s fine Justin! I’m excited to get to know your friends better!” you say with a sincere tone. Justin smiles back at you and pulls a strand of your hair behind your left ear. “Ladies and gentlemen, we are going to be landing in Honolulu within 15 minutes. Please make sure your seat belts are securely fastened.” you hear the flight attendant say, catching both you and Justin’s attention. You feel your heart race and a rush of energy fill you. This cruise is going to be amazing, you know it. 

Chapter five- First date?

It’s about 4pm. Sam left about an hour ago, and i’m in my room getting ready to hang out with Justin. Justin and I planned to hang out at around 6pm, and let me tell you, I haven’t felt this nervous in a long time. 

The question of wether or not this ‘hang out’ was a date or not crossed my mind multiple times. Just go with the flow Nadia, don’t get attached, just have fun. As much as I tried to calm myself by thinking that, nothing seemed to get rid of these butterflies fluttering around in my stomach. 

I hear a knocking on my door. “Come in!” I say, already knowing it must be my mum.

“Hey sweetie.. we’re about to take off to Kyle’s beach house.. are you sure you don’t want to tag along?” my mum says in a worried tone.

To be completely honest, I didn’t want her to go. But my mum deserves to be happy, and if me being unhappy in the process of it is one of the results; so be it. 

“Mummy don’t worry about me. Have a great time.” I reply to my mum with a reassuring smile. I walk up to her and wrap my arms around her tightly. I take in the smell of her lavender perfume and feel her arms as they squeeze me tightly. 

“I love you Nadia, be good!” my mum says as she lets go of me. 

“I love you to mum, have fun.” I say as I turn around and continue to get ready. Even though I have my mind set on getting ready, my body seems to freeze. I listen to the sound of the front door as my mum closes it behind her, and I watch her and Kyle pull out of the driveway, then drive away. Ever since Caroline died, i’ve learned to appreciate people in my life more. I’ve learned that everyday things in life, things you don’t usually expect to lose, can vanish within moments.

I try to tune out my negative depressing thoughts with the radio. I turn it to a mainstream station and I hear Katy Perry’s uplifting voice fill the room. I continue to get ready for tonight. 

After trying on pretty much everything in my closet, i’ve finally came to a decision with my outfit for the evening. I have on a baggy Urban Outfitters indian print tee with a rope belt around the waist and some dark skinny  jeans with gladiator sandals. I liked the modest look. Sam tells me I should show off my huge boobs and tiny figure more, she says i’m lucky to have a body  ”this bangin’”; but I honestly hate showing off my boobs, they were my biggest insecurity. 

My hair is curled and my bangs swoop across my forehead. I have black eyeliner on my eyelids, grey eyeshadow, and mascara on my bright blue eyes. Other than my eye makeup, my face has a natural glow to it and i’m about ready to head out. One last glance at myself in the mirror, and then I head out the front door. I feel my heart pound inside my chest with each step I take towards Justin’s house. 

Justin:

I hear the door knocking, it must be Nadia. She’s here. I feel my palms sweat as I get nervous. I was so stoked when Nadia told me she would hang out with me today. She should be here any minute now, and she said she had some places in mind of where we could go. I like a girl who can take control, that’s pretty sexy in my opinion. I spray some cologne on myself as I finish getting ready. I grab my keys, phone, and wallet then walk downstairs. I slowly approach the front door and open it casually. As I open the front door, the first thing that catches my eye is her beautiful smile. The way those big blue eyes looked as the sun shined down on them captured my heart. 

“Ready to go?” I ask Nadia as I walk out the front door. I give her a friendly hug and take in her amazing scent as her body is pressed against mine. As her arms let go of me, all I can think of is how I want her to be in my arms again. 

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Nadia decided to take me to a park not too far from where we live. The two of us were sitting on a picnic blanket enjoying some of the food Nadia had packed for us. It was amazing. I had my shades on just to make sure no one recognized me. I wouldn’t want paps to ruin a perfect moment like this. So far, so good; no one seemed to notice me as ‘Justin Bieber’. It was nice. 

I watched as the evening breeze rustled through Nadia’s hair. I was taken in by her beauty each time my eyes were drawn to her. Nadia and I had been talking for about an hour now, and I was fascinated by her. The way she talked, the way she was so sure of herself, yet so humble, I loved it all. 

“So Bieber, you liking Arizona so far?” Nadia asked me. I looked into her big beautiful blue eyes as she spoke to me. 

“Yeah it’s not as bad as I thought it would be..” I reply with a sincere smile. To be honest, I thought I would hate Arizona.. and I probably would’ve, I didn’t like anything about the state.. Nadia made it all worth while though. Chaz and Ryan would be making fun of me like crazy right now if they knew I was this obsessed with a girl I just met, but boy just the thought of them makes me miss those two knuckleheads. 

“Did you leave a lot behind?” Nadia asked me. She seems so genuinely curious about me, and my life. This is the first time in a long time that i’ve actually talked to a girl who actually gave a damn about me; not my hair, looks, whatever. 

“Well ever since i’ve been ‘Justin Bieber’ i’ve been traveling pretty much nonstop so I haven’t had time to think about what i’ve had to leave behind, but now that i’ve settled down i’ve really started to miss friends, family, some of my old life… ehh, forget it, it’s complicated.” I say as I look down trying to get away from the subject, I didn’t want Nadia to think I was some typical asswipe popstar complaining about every little thing. 

“No explain.. if you wanna talk about it that is.. i’m curious.” Nadia says as she places her hand on top of mine capturing my attention, forcing my eyes to meet hers once again. She smiles as she sees my eyes meet hers. I smile back at her and let out a soft giggle. 

Nadia giggles. Unfortunately, she then moves her hand off of mine. More than anything I just wanted to kiss her. Bieber keep your cool. She’s just a girl. You just met this girl. You and her are just friends. Just friends.

”.. well well well you sure are nosey Ms. Allen. Are you secretly one of my biggest fans who wants to know everything about my life?” I reply with a kidding tone. I made sure to make it obvious that I was joking, I didn’t want her to think I was a total douche. 

Nadia giggles and let’s out a big smile. Success. Seeing that smile brought a sense of victory to my heart. I wasn’t sure if Nadia and I were flirting, or if she was just a charismatic person. I wondered if she had an attraction to me, because I knew for a fact I was very, very attracted to her. 

“You caught me Bieber…” 

I lay my back down on the picnic blanket and put my hands behind my head in a relaxed position. I prayed that my armpits weren’t sweaty. 

Nadia then layed herself near me and rested her head on one of her hands supported by her elbow as she looked at me. I closed my eyes and felt her eyes watch me. It was an amazing feeling. More than anything I wanted to open my eyes and look over at her angelic beautiful self, but I tried my best to keep my cool.

“But seriously Justin, explain what you were saying, i’m curious..” she said to me in a serious yet sweet tone.

Even though I barely knew this girl, I felt comfortable in telling her about my personal life. Something about Nadia made me trust her; so I began to tell her all about my friends, family, and old life before all the fame. I told Nadia about all the things I missed, the people I missed, and the things that constantly had been complicated my life since the fame. Nadia listened intently and seemed as if she took in every single word I said to heart. She listened, and she didn’t seem to judge me. I really liked talking to Nadia. What a great first date- first hang out, or whatever.

.. I really hoped it was a first date. 

Chapter thirtyseven- SURPRISE!

You slowly open your eyes as you wake up from your night’s sleep, you wake up feeling happy. It’s about 10am, the birds are singing, and the sun is shining. You stretch your arms and sit up in your bed. You glance out your window and see your mom outside with your dad talking to the neighbors. You rub your eyes as you continue to try to wake yourself up. You reach over for your phone on your nightstand. Two unread texts. The first one is from your best friend. “hey babygirl, sorry we haven’t been hanging out much lately.. i miss you</3” it’s true. She has been ditching you a lot lately, mainly for Dylan. But whatever, things fall apart, people change, that’s just life. You don’t think much of the message from your said-to-be-bestfriend and ignore the message. The unread second message is from Justin. You bite your lip and smile as you click to read it. “Justin: Goodmorning beautiful! I have a surprise for you. come to my concert downtown tonight?” you don’t take your time to reply “yeah sounds great baby<3 can’t wait.” you shut your phone and begin to get yourself out of bed. You look at yourself in the mirror and attempt to fix your messy bed head hair, you give up and throw it up in a messy bun for now. You suddenly hear your phone buzz, so you reach for it on your bed. “Justin: k pick you up at 5 babe :)” you smile as you read the message. You can’t imagine what Justin’s surprise is for you. I mean what more can he give you? He’s already the most amazing boyfriend in the world, knowing a boy like him exists is already surprising enough. 

It’s about 4:45pm, and you’ve wasted most of your Saturday afternoon doing nothing but laying by the neighborhood pool. You weren’t really up for hanging out with anyone today, you wanted to rest up and save all your energy for Justin. School has been wearing you out and you can’t wait for spring break which is coming up next week. 3 weeks off of school should get you set back on track with your life. //// You stand in front of the mirror, adjusting your appearance. You look good as usual. You have on white and mint colored loose hollister t-shirt that is tight around the chest, showing off your boobs. You decide to wear a dark denim mini skirt that goes amazingly with the top, and some matching blue/green jewelry to show off the mint color on your shirt. Your hair is perfectly straightened, and your bangs swoop across your forehead. Your hair has gotten so long, but you like it. Your lashes look long and your cheeks have a bit of a natural red tinted blush on them. You smile at yourself, and then walk to grab your purse. You grab your purse, and slip on some flip flops you see on the ground. From the corner of your eye, you suddenly see Justin pull up in a black limo. Perfect timing. Your heart begins to race, just like it always does before you see Justin. 

You open the front door to see Justin standing there smiling at you. Justin looks you up and down. “Wow you look amazing _______” Justin says to you as he pulls you towards him. He smells amazing, as usual. His scent is one of your favorite things about him. You press your lips against his and take in his sweet taste. You both pull away and start to walk towards the limo. Justin is wearing his concert attire- the purple and white outfit he’s always seen wearing in pictures. He looks incredibly sexy, as usual. You get in the limo and sit next to Justin, who sits next to Pattie and Kenny. You greet them and flash them a friendly smile. Shortly after, the limo begins to drive downtown.

You’re standing backstage next to Pattie watching Justin preform his song ‘Love Me’. You think having heard Justin sing all the time would make you sick of his songs, but you honestly can’t get enough of them. You can’t believe how incredibly talented your boyfriend is. You think after dating him for about a year now you’d be used to how amazing Justin is, but as corny as it sounds, you just can’t seem to get over the fact of how insanely incredible Justin truly is. //// “You’re going to love Justin’s surprise ______” Pattie says to you as she nudges you as the song ‘Love Me’ comes to an end. You smile back at her and giggle. You watch Justin as he smiles at the roaring crowd. He takes off his hat, and throws it to his fans. His hair is sweaty and wet, but it looks sexy. He smiles into the microphone and catches his breathe. “So, i’ve got a bit of an announcement to make..” Justin says into the microphone. The crowd is still loud, but begins to quiet down as they quickly get anxious wanting to know what Justin has to say. You’re getting anxious as well, you have no idea what surprise he has for you. A crew man off to the far left carries up a bouquet of flowers to Justin. Justin takes the flowers in one hand. “______? Baby can you come out here?” Justin says as he points towards you backstage. You smile at Pattie as she giggles “go!” to you. Pattie gives you a friendly nudge towards the stage and ou blush and begin to walk towards Justin. The crowd roars again as they hear your name. You secretly hate it when Justin brings you out in front of all his fans, you’re afraid they hate you or something, since you’re dating their idol. You wave at the crowd as you speed walk over to Justin. Once you get to Justin, you kiss his cheek as he hands you the flowers. Was this the surprise? I mean you’re flattered and all, but what’s the big deal about flowers? You smile at Justin and mouth “thank you” to him. You kiss him once more and look at him as he smiles at you. He brings to the microphone back up to his mouth and begins to speak. “Baby, with spring break coming up and all.. I thought we could do something special…” an ear to ear grin smile instantly appears on your face. The crowd is going wild at the sound of Justin’s voice, but through the noise Justin some how manages to begin to speak again. “So the CCG (Celebrity Cruise Getaway;; yes, I made this up haha) has invited me to attend their 3 week cruise this spring break, I was also told I could bring my closest friends, and of course I want you there baby..” the crowd goes into a huge awe, and you begin to blush even more. You probably look like a tomato right now, your cheeks are so red. The smile on your face seems to be stuck there, you wouldn’t be able to stop smiling even if you tried. “So what do you say baby?” Justin asks you. You pull him close to you again and hug him tightly. He wraps his arms around you tightly as you force yourself on him. You turn your head and whisper loudly into his ear “YES! yes yes yes.” you then kiss his cheek several times. He giggles at how excited you are. The crowds screams and cheers haven’t stopped, they seem to be as excited as you are. You’re stoked, words can’t explain how excited you are. You were already beyond excited for spring break, but now you get to spend 3 weeks on a luxury cruise with your boyfriend Justin Bieber, and hundreds of other celebrities along with some of their friends. Almost instantly your mind is filled with the thought of how long this last week of school was going to be before spring break. You just couldn’t wait to leave California, stupid drama with your best friend and such, and just get away with Justin. Nothing in the world sounds better to you than the thought of that right now. “CCG 2011 here I come” you think to yourself.

Chapter four- Following my heart & losing my mind.

The movie ‘Sleepless in Seattle’ is playing on the tv, and Sam is passed out on my love sac in front of the tv. I must’ve fell dozed off during the movie.

I try my best to calm myself down, but the tears just keep on coming. I hated thinking about Chris. I couldn’t handle the thought of those memories. This is why I needed to stop with this stupid little crush I had on Justin. In fact, thinking of Justin and the way he made me feel today, that’s probably what caused me to have that god awful nightmare about Chris. Was that dream a warning? That I needed to stay away from Justin or else i’m just going to get hurt again? Probably not, but Chris has scarred my heart and I can’t imagine the thought of getting hurt like that again. 

I eventually stop crying and calm myself down. I get up from my bed, and quietly turn off the tv.

I turn off the tv and am a little startled when I still hear noise. Then I realize it’s coming from the room next to mine, my mum’s room. I hear moans and sexual grunts.

Kyle and my mum are having sex.. ewww. I tune out the sounds my mum and Kyle are making and sit myself on my bed. I’m afraid of falling asleep and having another dream about Chris, so I try my best to stay awake despite how tired I am. 

I look out my window, and see Justin’s house in the darkness. Justin. Just the thought of him brings me instant happiness; but at the same time, a scared and disappointed feeling within myself.. I promised myself I wouldn’t open myself up to any more heartbreak. I’m trying my best to keep the walls up around my heart to keep Justin out, but something about him keeps tearing them down. I was losing my mind over this boy. I knew wether I liked it or not, I was going to end up following my heart, which lead me straight to Justin. 

It’s now about 9am. No one is awake but me. I’m downstairs sitting on my couch just thinking about everything. I couldn’t fall back asleep after having that nightmare, so I just stayed awake the whole night. My train of thought is broken off by the sound of soft footsteps coming down the stairs. 

“Sammy?” I ask as I sit up on the couch. I look over towards where the footsteps are coming from and see it’s not Sam. It’s my mum.

“Oh it’s you..” I whisper under my breathe as I turn back around facing the opposite direction of her. I was so mad she didn’t go to Caroline’s grave yesterday, how could she not go, how could she just want to forget about her? 

“Goodmorning sweetie!” my mum says to me as she walks by making her way to the kitchen.

“Morning.”

“Hunny, you look exhausted! You’ve got some hardcore bags under your eyes, did you sleep alright?” my mum asks me.

“No, not really. It’s hard to sleep when your mum and her boyfriend FUCK all night long.” I say emphasizing the word ‘fuck’. Even though that wasn’t what caused me to get no sleep, I wanted to make her feel bad anyway. I was angered by her actions yesterday, and I didn’t give a flying fuck if I hurt her feelings that moment. 

“Natasha Allen. Change your language.” my mum snaps back at me. Her cheeks turn red as she becomes visibly embarrassed. My mum then pretends to be looking for something in one of the kitchen drawers to avoid eye-contact. Oh boy, here comes a mummmy-daughter cat fight.

“Change your priorities.” I reply almost instantly. 

“Excuse me?” My mum then walks over and stands in front of me with her arms crossed.

“Did I stutter or something? Kyle is more important to you than anything. I mean not showing up to your dead daughter’s grave on her birthday…?” I say as my voice shakes. Tears being to flood my eyes, I couldn’t help it. 

A tear runs down my mum’s face. “Nadia… I couldn’t go. I just couldn’t do it. I love Caroline and I always will, i’ll never forget her.. I just need to move on a little you know? I can’t sit here and hurt everyday.. please try to understand..” I suddenly felt sorry for my harsh comments to my mum, I don’t want her to hurt. Maybe she was right.

“Nadia i’ll always love you to. You mean everything to me.” my mum then adds before I have the chance to say anything. 

I look up at her and flash her a reassuring smile, tears still running down my face. “I’m sorry mum.. I just get so scared when it comes to all that type of stuff involving Caroline.” 

“It all scares me to hunny.. believe me..” my mum says as she wipes the tears from her face. 

We both are silent as the tears dry from our faces. My mum then walks back into the kitchen to make some coffee. 

“Oh yeah, would you be mad if I went to stay with Kyle in his super nice beach house for two weeks sweetie?” my mum yells to me from the kitchen. 

At this moment, any normal teenager would be thrilled to know they have the opportunity to have their house to themselves for two whole weeks. Parties, sex, you name it. But me, the thought of being alone scares me. But I guess Sam and my other friends could come over a lot, or I could just get out of the house often; I wasn’t about to ruin my mum’s happiness after that tearful talk we just had.

I get up from the couch and walk towards my mum in the kitchen. I lean on the counter across from her and smile. “No, not at all. Sounds fun mummy. When do you leave?” I ask.

“Well he wants to leave tonight, but if you don’t want me to go speak up now or forever hold your peace; I wouldn’t be mad whatsoever if you said you’d miss having me around for two weeks and don’t want me to go.” my mum replies taking her eyes off the coffee pot giving me her full attention. 

“I think I can manage.” I reply giggling a little.

BEEP. I hear my phone beep, and pull it out of my pajama shorts pocket. One Unread Text.

Goodmorning beautiful. This is Justin btw haha :) 

As I read the message, I begin to feel my heart race and butterflies flutter around my stomach. Without knowing it, a smile appears on my face aswell. 

“Ou texting a boy?” my mum says noticing my smile. I laugh.

“Yeah! That Bieber kid who just moved in across the street!” I reply to my mum.

“Oh! I met his mother the other day, she’s such a sweetheart, we’re getting lunch sometime together we decided… and I hear that Justin boy has got some serious talent, one of my clients, Chris Brown says he’s worked with him a couple times.” my mum replies. I love how my mum and I just talk about Chris Brown and Justin Bieber so casually as if they’re not a big deal, kinda funny in my opinion. But really, they are just normal people like everybody else, all famous people are, sometimes it seems like the world forgets that. 

I look back down at my phone reading the message from Justin again, then begin to type out my reply.

Morning Bieber (:

About a minute later my phone beeps again. I look down and smile again at the words One Unread Text. I know it’s from Justin. Wow, am I actually texting Justin Bieber? Justin fucking Bieber? Only about a million girls in America would kill to me right now. This is crazy. 

So I was wandering.. would you possibly want to hang out? :) today? 

Hmmmm. I’d have to check my schedule.. maybe I could squeeze you in Bieber. (; 

Hahah ;) well I sure hope you can fit me in.. I really wanna see you again shawty!