Chapter thirtyeight- Hello Hawaii.

“Give me a kiss sweetie” your mom says to you as she holds you tightly. You squeeze your mother as if you’re never going to see her again, you know you’re going to miss her while you’re away on the cruise with Justin. As you let go of her, you reach down for your suitcase and begin to pull the metal bar as you walk away from your mom, towards the airport check in. You turn around one last time and blow your mom a kiss. //////// Justin had some things he had to take care of before he could go on the cruise, so you just told him to meet you at the gate. The sad feeling of how you’re going to miss your family starts to vanish and a feeling of excitement begins to grow within you. This cruise was going to be amazing. I mean a ton of celebrities, being with your boyfriend all spring break, luxury cruisee- what’s not to be exciting about? //// You have now gotten through airport security. You take a seat at your gate, and look around for Justin’s familiar face. Suddenly you feel someone grab you from behind and wrap their arms around you. Within a second you already know who it is- Justin. His touch is so familiar to you. Justin then presses his lips against your cheek. “you excited baby?” he continues pecking your cheek with little kisses. “Hell yeah babe.” you say as a smile appears on your face. You turn facing towards him and wrap your arms around his neck. You look into his eyes as the two of you smile at eachother. It was moments like these that made you realize how beautiful love truly was. You give Justin one kiss on the lips, and then take his hand. You lead him towards to empty seats nearby and sit. Justin is playing with his phone, probably on twitter, and you take out your phone to see if your ‘best friend’ texted you. You texted her telling her you were going away all spring break on the cruise with Justin hoping to share your excitement with her, but she hasn’t replied. She’s been so busy with Dylan, the two of you are practically strangers. This makes you sad, but you know friends come and go, and life goes on. //////// you and Justin have now boarded the plane. The plane took off about an hour ago, and you’re feeling tired. You’re not the biggest fan of plane rides, so you try to sleep. ////// You open your eyes and look up to see Justin’s eyes shut as he leans on his arm. His other arm was around you, and your head was in his lap. He’s so beautiful, and so perfect. Without knowing it, you smile as you examine each and every one of Justin’s perfect facial features. You gently run your fingers through his soft hair, trying your best not to wake him. As your fingers graze through his hair, his eyes slowly open. Justin then looks down and smiles at you. You pull his head down to yours and give him a long kiss. Justin’s tongue wanders along the edges of your lips, trying to make entry to your mouth. You giggle and pull away. “Not here baby!” you say to Justin with a smile. Justin then smiles as he strokes your hair. “Sorry you’re just too damn irresistible.. but I guess we are gunna have a lot of alone time on this cruise, huh?” Justin says with a wink. You giggle and pull him in for another kiss. As you pull away you hold his head near yours. “I sure hope so baby..” you whisper into Justin’s ear, trying to sound sexy. “I want you all to myself these next weeks..” you continue before he responds. Justin then gives a fake laugh and smiles at you. You pull away slowly confused by his unsure response. “What’s wrong..?” you ask Justin as the smile on your face vanishes. Justin then smiles and puts his hands on your thighs. “Nothing at all baby! But I hope you won’t mind that Chaz, Christian, Ryan, and their girlfriends are going to be coming on the cruise to… I hope that’s okay…” Justin says in a worried tone, as if you’d be pissed that he invited his friends on the CCG luxury cruise. It’s cute how much he cares. You give him a reassuring smile. “That’s fine Justin! I’m excited to get to know your friends better!” you say with a sincere tone. Justin smiles back at you and pulls a strand of your hair behind your left ear. “Ladies and gentlemen, we are going to be landing in Honolulu within 15 minutes. Please make sure your seat belts are securely fastened.” you hear the flight attendant say, catching both you and Justin’s attention. You feel your heart race and a rush of energy fill you. This cruise is going to be amazing, you know it. 

Chapter five- First date?

It’s about 4pm. Sam left about an hour ago, and i’m in my room getting ready to hang out with Justin. Justin and I planned to hang out at around 6pm, and let me tell you, I haven’t felt this nervous in a long time. 

The question of wether or not this ‘hang out’ was a date or not crossed my mind multiple times. Just go with the flow Nadia, don’t get attached, just have fun. As much as I tried to calm myself by thinking that, nothing seemed to get rid of these butterflies fluttering around in my stomach. 

I hear a knocking on my door. “Come in!” I say, already knowing it must be my mum.

“Hey sweetie.. we’re about to take off to Kyle’s beach house.. are you sure you don’t want to tag along?” my mum says in a worried tone.

To be completely honest, I didn’t want her to go. But my mum deserves to be happy, and if me being unhappy in the process of it is one of the results; so be it. 

“Mummy don’t worry about me. Have a great time.” I reply to my mum with a reassuring smile. I walk up to her and wrap my arms around her tightly. I take in the smell of her lavender perfume and feel her arms as they squeeze me tightly. 

“I love you Nadia, be good!” my mum says as she lets go of me. 

“I love you to mum, have fun.” I say as I turn around and continue to get ready. Even though I have my mind set on getting ready, my body seems to freeze. I listen to the sound of the front door as my mum closes it behind her, and I watch her and Kyle pull out of the driveway, then drive away. Ever since Caroline died, i’ve learned to appreciate people in my life more. I’ve learned that everyday things in life, things you don’t usually expect to lose, can vanish within moments.

I try to tune out my negative depressing thoughts with the radio. I turn it to a mainstream station and I hear Katy Perry’s uplifting voice fill the room. I continue to get ready for tonight. 

After trying on pretty much everything in my closet, i’ve finally came to a decision with my outfit for the evening. I have on a baggy Urban Outfitters indian print tee with a rope belt around the waist and some dark skinny  jeans with gladiator sandals. I liked the modest look. Sam tells me I should show off my huge boobs and tiny figure more, she says i’m lucky to have a body  ”this bangin’”; but I honestly hate showing off my boobs, they were my biggest insecurity. 

My hair is curled and my bangs swoop across my forehead. I have black eyeliner on my eyelids, grey eyeshadow, and mascara on my bright blue eyes. Other than my eye makeup, my face has a natural glow to it and i’m about ready to head out. One last glance at myself in the mirror, and then I head out the front door. I feel my heart pound inside my chest with each step I take towards Justin’s house. 

Justin:

I hear the door knocking, it must be Nadia. She’s here. I feel my palms sweat as I get nervous. I was so stoked when Nadia told me she would hang out with me today. She should be here any minute now, and she said she had some places in mind of where we could go. I like a girl who can take control, that’s pretty sexy in my opinion. I spray some cologne on myself as I finish getting ready. I grab my keys, phone, and wallet then walk downstairs. I slowly approach the front door and open it casually. As I open the front door, the first thing that catches my eye is her beautiful smile. The way those big blue eyes looked as the sun shined down on them captured my heart. 

“Ready to go?” I ask Nadia as I walk out the front door. I give her a friendly hug and take in her amazing scent as her body is pressed against mine. As her arms let go of me, all I can think of is how I want her to be in my arms again. 

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Nadia decided to take me to a park not too far from where we live. The two of us were sitting on a picnic blanket enjoying some of the food Nadia had packed for us. It was amazing. I had my shades on just to make sure no one recognized me. I wouldn’t want paps to ruin a perfect moment like this. So far, so good; no one seemed to notice me as ‘Justin Bieber’. It was nice. 

I watched as the evening breeze rustled through Nadia’s hair. I was taken in by her beauty each time my eyes were drawn to her. Nadia and I had been talking for about an hour now, and I was fascinated by her. The way she talked, the way she was so sure of herself, yet so humble, I loved it all. 

“So Bieber, you liking Arizona so far?” Nadia asked me. I looked into her big beautiful blue eyes as she spoke to me. 

“Yeah it’s not as bad as I thought it would be..” I reply with a sincere smile. To be honest, I thought I would hate Arizona.. and I probably would’ve, I didn’t like anything about the state.. Nadia made it all worth while though. Chaz and Ryan would be making fun of me like crazy right now if they knew I was this obsessed with a girl I just met, but boy just the thought of them makes me miss those two knuckleheads. 

“Did you leave a lot behind?” Nadia asked me. She seems so genuinely curious about me, and my life. This is the first time in a long time that i’ve actually talked to a girl who actually gave a damn about me; not my hair, looks, whatever. 

“Well ever since i’ve been ‘Justin Bieber’ i’ve been traveling pretty much nonstop so I haven’t had time to think about what i’ve had to leave behind, but now that i’ve settled down i’ve really started to miss friends, family, some of my old life… ehh, forget it, it’s complicated.” I say as I look down trying to get away from the subject, I didn’t want Nadia to think I was some typical asswipe popstar complaining about every little thing. 

“No explain.. if you wanna talk about it that is.. i’m curious.” Nadia says as she places her hand on top of mine capturing my attention, forcing my eyes to meet hers once again. She smiles as she sees my eyes meet hers. I smile back at her and let out a soft giggle. 

Nadia giggles. Unfortunately, she then moves her hand off of mine. More than anything I just wanted to kiss her. Bieber keep your cool. She’s just a girl. You just met this girl. You and her are just friends. Just friends.

”.. well well well you sure are nosey Ms. Allen. Are you secretly one of my biggest fans who wants to know everything about my life?” I reply with a kidding tone. I made sure to make it obvious that I was joking, I didn’t want her to think I was a total douche. 

Nadia giggles and let’s out a big smile. Success. Seeing that smile brought a sense of victory to my heart. I wasn’t sure if Nadia and I were flirting, or if she was just a charismatic person. I wondered if she had an attraction to me, because I knew for a fact I was very, very attracted to her. 

“You caught me Bieber…” 

I lay my back down on the picnic blanket and put my hands behind my head in a relaxed position. I prayed that my armpits weren’t sweaty. 

Nadia then layed herself near me and rested her head on one of her hands supported by her elbow as she looked at me. I closed my eyes and felt her eyes watch me. It was an amazing feeling. More than anything I wanted to open my eyes and look over at her angelic beautiful self, but I tried my best to keep my cool.

“But seriously Justin, explain what you were saying, i’m curious..” she said to me in a serious yet sweet tone.

Even though I barely knew this girl, I felt comfortable in telling her about my personal life. Something about Nadia made me trust her; so I began to tell her all about my friends, family, and old life before all the fame. I told Nadia about all the things I missed, the people I missed, and the things that constantly had been complicated my life since the fame. Nadia listened intently and seemed as if she took in every single word I said to heart. She listened, and she didn’t seem to judge me. I really liked talking to Nadia. What a great first date- first hang out, or whatever.

.. I really hoped it was a first date. 

Chapter thirtyseven- SURPRISE!

You slowly open your eyes as you wake up from your night’s sleep, you wake up feeling happy. It’s about 10am, the birds are singing, and the sun is shining. You stretch your arms and sit up in your bed. You glance out your window and see your mom outside with your dad talking to the neighbors. You rub your eyes as you continue to try to wake yourself up. You reach over for your phone on your nightstand. Two unread texts. The first one is from your best friend. “hey babygirl, sorry we haven’t been hanging out much lately.. i miss you</3” it’s true. She has been ditching you a lot lately, mainly for Dylan. But whatever, things fall apart, people change, that’s just life. You don’t think much of the message from your said-to-be-bestfriend and ignore the message. The unread second message is from Justin. You bite your lip and smile as you click to read it. “Justin: Goodmorning beautiful! I have a surprise for you. come to my concert downtown tonight?” you don’t take your time to reply “yeah sounds great baby<3 can’t wait.” you shut your phone and begin to get yourself out of bed. You look at yourself in the mirror and attempt to fix your messy bed head hair, you give up and throw it up in a messy bun for now. You suddenly hear your phone buzz, so you reach for it on your bed. “Justin: k pick you up at 5 babe :)” you smile as you read the message. You can’t imagine what Justin’s surprise is for you. I mean what more can he give you? He’s already the most amazing boyfriend in the world, knowing a boy like him exists is already surprising enough. 

It’s about 4:45pm, and you’ve wasted most of your Saturday afternoon doing nothing but laying by the neighborhood pool. You weren’t really up for hanging out with anyone today, you wanted to rest up and save all your energy for Justin. School has been wearing you out and you can’t wait for spring break which is coming up next week. 3 weeks off of school should get you set back on track with your life. //// You stand in front of the mirror, adjusting your appearance. You look good as usual. You have on white and mint colored loose hollister t-shirt that is tight around the chest, showing off your boobs. You decide to wear a dark denim mini skirt that goes amazingly with the top, and some matching blue/green jewelry to show off the mint color on your shirt. Your hair is perfectly straightened, and your bangs swoop across your forehead. Your hair has gotten so long, but you like it. Your lashes look long and your cheeks have a bit of a natural red tinted blush on them. You smile at yourself, and then walk to grab your purse. You grab your purse, and slip on some flip flops you see on the ground. From the corner of your eye, you suddenly see Justin pull up in a black limo. Perfect timing. Your heart begins to race, just like it always does before you see Justin. 

You open the front door to see Justin standing there smiling at you. Justin looks you up and down. “Wow you look amazing _______” Justin says to you as he pulls you towards him. He smells amazing, as usual. His scent is one of your favorite things about him. You press your lips against his and take in his sweet taste. You both pull away and start to walk towards the limo. Justin is wearing his concert attire- the purple and white outfit he’s always seen wearing in pictures. He looks incredibly sexy, as usual. You get in the limo and sit next to Justin, who sits next to Pattie and Kenny. You greet them and flash them a friendly smile. Shortly after, the limo begins to drive downtown.

You’re standing backstage next to Pattie watching Justin preform his song ‘Love Me’. You think having heard Justin sing all the time would make you sick of his songs, but you honestly can’t get enough of them. You can’t believe how incredibly talented your boyfriend is. You think after dating him for about a year now you’d be used to how amazing Justin is, but as corny as it sounds, you just can’t seem to get over the fact of how insanely incredible Justin truly is. //// “You’re going to love Justin’s surprise ______” Pattie says to you as she nudges you as the song ‘Love Me’ comes to an end. You smile back at her and giggle. You watch Justin as he smiles at the roaring crowd. He takes off his hat, and throws it to his fans. His hair is sweaty and wet, but it looks sexy. He smiles into the microphone and catches his breathe. “So, i’ve got a bit of an announcement to make..” Justin says into the microphone. The crowd is still loud, but begins to quiet down as they quickly get anxious wanting to know what Justin has to say. You’re getting anxious as well, you have no idea what surprise he has for you. A crew man off to the far left carries up a bouquet of flowers to Justin. Justin takes the flowers in one hand. “______? Baby can you come out here?” Justin says as he points towards you backstage. You smile at Pattie as she giggles “go!” to you. Pattie gives you a friendly nudge towards the stage and ou blush and begin to walk towards Justin. The crowd roars again as they hear your name. You secretly hate it when Justin brings you out in front of all his fans, you’re afraid they hate you or something, since you’re dating their idol. You wave at the crowd as you speed walk over to Justin. Once you get to Justin, you kiss his cheek as he hands you the flowers. Was this the surprise? I mean you’re flattered and all, but what’s the big deal about flowers? You smile at Justin and mouth “thank you” to him. You kiss him once more and look at him as he smiles at you. He brings to the microphone back up to his mouth and begins to speak. “Baby, with spring break coming up and all.. I thought we could do something special…” an ear to ear grin smile instantly appears on your face. The crowd is going wild at the sound of Justin’s voice, but through the noise Justin some how manages to begin to speak again. “So the CCG (Celebrity Cruise Getaway;; yes, I made this up haha) has invited me to attend their 3 week cruise this spring break, I was also told I could bring my closest friends, and of course I want you there baby..” the crowd goes into a huge awe, and you begin to blush even more. You probably look like a tomato right now, your cheeks are so red. The smile on your face seems to be stuck there, you wouldn’t be able to stop smiling even if you tried. “So what do you say baby?” Justin asks you. You pull him close to you again and hug him tightly. He wraps his arms around you tightly as you force yourself on him. You turn your head and whisper loudly into his ear “YES! yes yes yes.” you then kiss his cheek several times. He giggles at how excited you are. The crowds screams and cheers haven’t stopped, they seem to be as excited as you are. You’re stoked, words can’t explain how excited you are. You were already beyond excited for spring break, but now you get to spend 3 weeks on a luxury cruise with your boyfriend Justin Bieber, and hundreds of other celebrities along with some of their friends. Almost instantly your mind is filled with the thought of how long this last week of school was going to be before spring break. You just couldn’t wait to leave California, stupid drama with your best friend and such, and just get away with Justin. Nothing in the world sounds better to you than the thought of that right now. “CCG 2011 here I come” you think to yourself.

Chapter four- Following my heart & losing my mind.

The movie ‘Sleepless in Seattle’ is playing on the tv, and Sam is passed out on my love sac in front of the tv. I must’ve fell dozed off during the movie.

I try my best to calm myself down, but the tears just keep on coming. I hated thinking about Chris. I couldn’t handle the thought of those memories. This is why I needed to stop with this stupid little crush I had on Justin. In fact, thinking of Justin and the way he made me feel today, that’s probably what caused me to have that god awful nightmare about Chris. Was that dream a warning? That I needed to stay away from Justin or else i’m just going to get hurt again? Probably not, but Chris has scarred my heart and I can’t imagine the thought of getting hurt like that again. 

I eventually stop crying and calm myself down. I get up from my bed, and quietly turn off the tv.

I turn off the tv and am a little startled when I still hear noise. Then I realize it’s coming from the room next to mine, my mum’s room. I hear moans and sexual grunts.

Kyle and my mum are having sex.. ewww. I tune out the sounds my mum and Kyle are making and sit myself on my bed. I’m afraid of falling asleep and having another dream about Chris, so I try my best to stay awake despite how tired I am. 

I look out my window, and see Justin’s house in the darkness. Justin. Just the thought of him brings me instant happiness; but at the same time, a scared and disappointed feeling within myself.. I promised myself I wouldn’t open myself up to any more heartbreak. I’m trying my best to keep the walls up around my heart to keep Justin out, but something about him keeps tearing them down. I was losing my mind over this boy. I knew wether I liked it or not, I was going to end up following my heart, which lead me straight to Justin. 

It’s now about 9am. No one is awake but me. I’m downstairs sitting on my couch just thinking about everything. I couldn’t fall back asleep after having that nightmare, so I just stayed awake the whole night. My train of thought is broken off by the sound of soft footsteps coming down the stairs. 

“Sammy?” I ask as I sit up on the couch. I look over towards where the footsteps are coming from and see it’s not Sam. It’s my mum.

“Oh it’s you..” I whisper under my breathe as I turn back around facing the opposite direction of her. I was so mad she didn’t go to Caroline’s grave yesterday, how could she not go, how could she just want to forget about her? 

“Goodmorning sweetie!” my mum says to me as she walks by making her way to the kitchen.

“Morning.”

“Hunny, you look exhausted! You’ve got some hardcore bags under your eyes, did you sleep alright?” my mum asks me.

“No, not really. It’s hard to sleep when your mum and her boyfriend FUCK all night long.” I say emphasizing the word ‘fuck’. Even though that wasn’t what caused me to get no sleep, I wanted to make her feel bad anyway. I was angered by her actions yesterday, and I didn’t give a flying fuck if I hurt her feelings that moment. 

“Natasha Allen. Change your language.” my mum snaps back at me. Her cheeks turn red as she becomes visibly embarrassed. My mum then pretends to be looking for something in one of the kitchen drawers to avoid eye-contact. Oh boy, here comes a mummmy-daughter cat fight.

“Change your priorities.” I reply almost instantly. 

“Excuse me?” My mum then walks over and stands in front of me with her arms crossed.

“Did I stutter or something? Kyle is more important to you than anything. I mean not showing up to your dead daughter’s grave on her birthday…?” I say as my voice shakes. Tears being to flood my eyes, I couldn’t help it. 

A tear runs down my mum’s face. “Nadia… I couldn’t go. I just couldn’t do it. I love Caroline and I always will, i’ll never forget her.. I just need to move on a little you know? I can’t sit here and hurt everyday.. please try to understand..” I suddenly felt sorry for my harsh comments to my mum, I don’t want her to hurt. Maybe she was right.

“Nadia i’ll always love you to. You mean everything to me.” my mum then adds before I have the chance to say anything. 

I look up at her and flash her a reassuring smile, tears still running down my face. “I’m sorry mum.. I just get so scared when it comes to all that type of stuff involving Caroline.” 

“It all scares me to hunny.. believe me..” my mum says as she wipes the tears from her face. 

We both are silent as the tears dry from our faces. My mum then walks back into the kitchen to make some coffee. 

“Oh yeah, would you be mad if I went to stay with Kyle in his super nice beach house for two weeks sweetie?” my mum yells to me from the kitchen. 

At this moment, any normal teenager would be thrilled to know they have the opportunity to have their house to themselves for two whole weeks. Parties, sex, you name it. But me, the thought of being alone scares me. But I guess Sam and my other friends could come over a lot, or I could just get out of the house often; I wasn’t about to ruin my mum’s happiness after that tearful talk we just had.

I get up from the couch and walk towards my mum in the kitchen. I lean on the counter across from her and smile. “No, not at all. Sounds fun mummy. When do you leave?” I ask.

“Well he wants to leave tonight, but if you don’t want me to go speak up now or forever hold your peace; I wouldn’t be mad whatsoever if you said you’d miss having me around for two weeks and don’t want me to go.” my mum replies taking her eyes off the coffee pot giving me her full attention. 

“I think I can manage.” I reply giggling a little.

BEEP. I hear my phone beep, and pull it out of my pajama shorts pocket. One Unread Text.

Goodmorning beautiful. This is Justin btw haha :) 

As I read the message, I begin to feel my heart race and butterflies flutter around my stomach. Without knowing it, a smile appears on my face aswell. 

“Ou texting a boy?” my mum says noticing my smile. I laugh.

“Yeah! That Bieber kid who just moved in across the street!” I reply to my mum.

“Oh! I met his mother the other day, she’s such a sweetheart, we’re getting lunch sometime together we decided… and I hear that Justin boy has got some serious talent, one of my clients, Chris Brown says he’s worked with him a couple times.” my mum replies. I love how my mum and I just talk about Chris Brown and Justin Bieber so casually as if they’re not a big deal, kinda funny in my opinion. But really, they are just normal people like everybody else, all famous people are, sometimes it seems like the world forgets that. 

I look back down at my phone reading the message from Justin again, then begin to type out my reply.

Morning Bieber (:

About a minute later my phone beeps again. I look down and smile again at the words One Unread Text. I know it’s from Justin. Wow, am I actually texting Justin Bieber? Justin fucking Bieber? Only about a million girls in America would kill to me right now. This is crazy. 

So I was wandering.. would you possibly want to hang out? :) today? 

Hmmmm. I’d have to check my schedule.. maybe I could squeeze you in Bieber. (; 

Hahah ;) well I sure hope you can fit me in.. I really wanna see you again shawty!

Chapter three- I wanna know you.

Justin and I stand by Caroline’s Creek for a good 20 minutes. Justin literally just comforted me while I cried on his shoulder for 20 minutes, and I just met the dude the other day. He’s truly a sweetheart.

Justin and I let go of eachother and look into eachother’s eyes for a moment.

“Thank you Justin.. for being there for me..” I say breaking the silence. I truly was grateful. He actually did make me feel a lot better surprisingly. 

Justin and I near our houses. The walk home was fun, I really feel like I know Justin better after talking with him as we walked home about stuff that didn’t have to relate to Caroline, it was nice to think about something else. He mainly told me stories about his World Tour, and people in his life- some names I remember him mentioning a lot were Scooter, Chaz, Ryan, his grandpa & grandma, his siblings; Jaxon & Jazy, etc. I’m glad the two of us didn’t talk much about my fucked up life, I don’t think I would’ve shared much of it with him anyways. 

I look over at my house, and see the empty drive way. Shocker. Mum is out with her boyfriend. I look back to Justin and see his warm smile. His smile is so comforting, it literally brings chills to my body. He’s so flawless.. so perfect. 

“I’ve got to help my mom make dinner, her friends are coming over tonight to see our new house..” Justin says to me while he rolls his eyes a little. “.. but we should hang out sometime Nadia.. you’re a really deep person, you’re real.. I like that.” Justin then adds. The smile on his face becomes bigger, showing off his beautiful white smile. Eeeeeepppp.

“Yeah, I guess you’re aight Bieber” I respond playfully. Am I flirting? Ah stop it Nadia, don’t go down this road.

It’s like a war going on within me, half of me wants me to go for Justin; get to know him, and possibly even fall in love with him if that was even an option.. then the other half of me wants to run away, and hide; Chris hurt me more than anyone will ever be able to understand.

Plus, as i’ve said before, i’ve learned it’s best not to get attached to people.. I just end up getting hurt.. ex. my dad, Chris, Caroline.. I wish my life and I weren’t so complicated, goddamnit. 

Justin laughs a little at my flirty response. “So am I worthy of getting Ms. Nadia Allen’s phone number?” He’s good. With that warm smile, and naturally flirtatious lingo, he was a pro at making a girl’s heart melt in the palm of his hand. He was really starting to get to me despite the war going on within me. 

“Hmmmmm, I suppose so” I say as I reach for his phone I see in his hand. I type in my number, and then hand Justin back his phone. I look up at him, and examine his flawless facial features. Our eyes then lock; I sware it was magical. 

“Text me sometime Bieber.” I say as I walk away after flashing him one last smile. 

“Count on it Allen” Justin responds to me. He giggles a little, and I can’t help but to turn around one last time before walking into my house.

To my surprise, he was doing the exact thing. Justin was still staring at me, smiling.

skdfhlksjhalkjfakjhfkajshdfkajshdfkajhdfkajhsfkajfak. That’s what I felt like just then. It was a good feeling though. I wasn’t expecting to be feeling anything like this, especially not today, I really don’t understand this at all- these crazy feelings Justin is giving me. 

(Justin)

I walk in my house, and shut the door. I stand with my back against the front door, smiling. Score. I got Nadia’s number. She was being flirty too I think? That’s another thing I like about her.. I can’t figure her out. Usually girls are all over me, and I can easily tell if they want me or not. But Nadia, I have no idea if she’s interesting in me or not. 

I look down at my phone in my hand. Should I text her? No. Not yet. C’mon Justin, keep your cool. 

I feel the front door knob begin to turn, and I move away from the door quickly. I then see my mom standing there in front of me outside of the open front door.

“Justin! Come help me carry in the groceries? I still have to make dinner for tonight!” my mom says to me.

“Yeah, I guess.” 

I walk out the front door following my mom to her car. As I walk outside, I take a quick glance at Nadia’s house. Nadia. Just knowing the most beautiful girl i’ve ever seen is so close, gives me an indescribable feeling. I need to get to know this girl, I want to know every single detail about Nadia Allen. In fact, I think I might just want Nadia Allen.

(Nadia) 

I sit on my bed and look at myself in the mirror fixing my hair. When is he going to text me? Is he ever going to text me? Stop thinking about it Nadia, you shouldn’t care.. oh who the hell am I trying to fool, I want him to text me more than anything else. My train of thought is broken off by the sound of my front door opening.

”.. mumm?” I yell. 

I hear footsteps rushing up my stairs. “Guess again” Sam. 

I suddenly see my best friend Sam standing in my bed room doorway smiling at me as she catches her breathe. 

Samantha Larson. She goes by Sam, if anyone calls her Samantha she gets pissed. Sam is literally the most beautiful girl i’ve ever seen, it kind of sucks when we go out together, the guys usually notice her before they even take a glance at me. Sam has shoulder length beach blonde hair, green eyes, and a smile to death for. Her nose is pierced, and she’s one of the few people I know that can actually pull off a nose piercing. She’s thin, curvy, and is developed- big ass, and big tits. Not as big as mine, but still big tits. Sam is the only person I trust in this world, I know I can count on her always. We know everything about eachother, I love how well we understand one another. Sam is kind of a slut, but I love her anyways. I couldn’t ask for a better best friend. 

“Hey Nads.. gimme a hug. You doin okay? I know today is rough day for ya..” Sam says to me as she plants herself next to me on my bed. Sam wraps her arms around me and I smell her strong perfume. That’s another thing about Sam, she always smells amazing.

“Yeah actually i’m doing better than I thought I would be” I reply to Sam in a reassuring way. I hug my best friend back as I feel her arms wrapped around me.

“Good. I’m happy to hear that! I stopped by the creek and placed some daffodils there, I know they were Caroline’s favorite.” Sam says to me sweetly. Sam really does know how to make me feel better. 

“Where’s your mommma?” Sam adds as she lets go of me. 

“Guess..” I reply bitterly.

“With what’s his face? Kole..?” 

“Kyle. Haa, as if it matters though..” I reply correcting Sam. We both giggle a little. Suddenly Sam shoots up from the bed and covers her mouth with her hands as she jumps up and down.

“Dude!” she says. Sam is excited.. new boyfriend or something maybe?

“What weirdo?” I say as I laugh at her jumping up and down in front of me. 

“Not sure if you know this.. but JUSTIN BIEBER IS YOUR FUCKING NEIGHBOR! As I was walking in your house.. he was helping his mom carry in groceries.. not joke.” Sam says to me excited yet completely serious.

“Yeah I know, I met him, he’s nice.” I say back to Sam, still giggling at how excited she is. Sam’s mouth drops. 

“WHY DIDN’T YA TELL ME BIOTCH?! JUSTIN MOTHER EFFING BIEBER? I mean c’mon Nads!” Sam says jokingly. 

“I don’t know, I had other things on my mind..” I say as I look at the scrapbooks containing pictures of Caroline and I. I feel my heart sink in my chest, and my body get heavy. Heartache; a feeling I was quite used to by now.

Sam nods her head, and looks away, pretending to be looking at something on my wall. 

“So you crashing here tonight? I’ve got a ton of chick flicks recorded we should watch” I ask Sam, trying to break the unwanted silence. 

“Chyeahh, sounds good.” 

A movie night with my best friend was just what I needed. Sam plops her slender body onto my love sac in front of my tv, and I turn on the tv.

The sun is shining through the window, hurting my eyes from it’s brightness. Chris and I are in his room, while his parent’s are away on vacation. I feel Chris’s arms hug my waist from behind.

Chris presses his lips against my cheek and slowly moves his lips to my ear. “Nadia want to know something?” Chris whispers to me. I hold onto his arms around me and giggle as I reply “Hmm, what?”

“I love you. I’m in love you. I’ve never loved anyone like I love you.. and I want to show it to you..” Chris says to me seductively. I suddenly feel his hands moving up and down my arms. Chris then slowly pulls the straps of my tank top off my shoulders. I feel my heart beating fast. I know what he wants to do; I wasn’t sure if Chris and I were ready, but I wanted to do it to. Not exactly at that moment, but if that’s what Chris wanted, I was willing to do anything for him, he had sort of been pressuring me into having sex with him for awhile. I had been saying no to him, but that day, I knew I was going to give into those blue eyes. 

“Chris..” I say as I turn around so Chris and I are facing eachother. I wrap my arms around his neck, and press my forehead against his. I stare into his beautiful blue eyes then add, “If you think that’s how we can show eachother how much we love eachother.. then I want to..” I reply unsure.

Chris presses his lips to mine, and I feel his tongue trying to enter my mouth. Chris and I begin to kiss passionately and hard. Chris pushes my clothes off slowly. Without even knowing it, Chris and I somehow back up against his bed. I fall back onto it, and he lays himself on top of me.

I knew what was about to happen, and I was scared. I had never had sex before. But if Chris wanted to do it, i’d do anything to make him happy.

I suddenly wake up and sit straight up in bed.

I’m breathing heavy, and I feel a cold sweat all over my body. I begin to cry silently to myself as I think of the nightmare I just had. 

Chapter two- Caroline’s Creek.

I can feel the sun pounding against my back as I wrap my arms around the warm smooth stone, that holds my sister Caroline’s body beneath it. Tears roll down my face and hit my short black dress. My knees are sinked into the grass as I sit there looking at the tombstone. Today would of been Caroline’s 19th birthday.

“Hi sissyy. I miss you.. mum misses you to.. she just forgot, that’s all.. she’s been hurtin’ a lot, we both have.. we miss you so much..” I mumble as my forehead is pressed against the warm tombstone. Tears begin to flood my eyes. I can’t believe mum isn’t here, how could she forget this.

I suddenly feel a hand on my shoulder and turn my head without removing my arms around Caroline’s tombstone to see who’s hand is on my shoulder. I look up and see a man wearing a long black coat. Detective Kipler. But I just call him Kip. 

I give him a friendly smile. “You remembered..” 

Kip reaches his hand out for mine to help me off the ground. I take his hand and feel my body slowly raise from the ground. I feel so weak, so empty. 

“Nadia, of course I remembered.. Caroline will always be remembered.” Kip says to me with a reassuring yet serious smile. His eyes are watering and his voice is a bit shakey. 

“Mum doesn’t remember..” I say bitterly. Harsh, but true. All she cares about is her fancy-pants new boyfriend. 

Kip looks down at the ground not knowing how to respond to my bitter remark. He knows i’m right. 

“Nadia hush. Don’t be ridiculous. It’s not that she doesn’t remember, she just tries not to remember as much.. she’s trying to move forward with her life, don’t be too hard on her..” Kip says to me as he looks deep into my eyes. I just nod in response, as the tears freely fall from my eyes. 

“I haven’t given up on trying to find the killer either Nadia, don’t ever think I will until the bastard is caught.. that son of a bitch is going to be in jail, I won’t rest until he’s behind bars.” Kip adds. The police have been investigating Caroline’s murder intently ever since the day she was found stabbed to death in a creek nearby our house. The creek respectively is now named Caroline’s Creek, it’s like a memorial for her; I make sure there are always fresh daffodils present there, those were Caroline’s favorite.

To this day, I don’t understand who would have murdered my sister, everyone loved her. But I pray every night that Kip finds the low life who did this. 

I’m home, in my room now, looking through scrapbooks of old pictures of me and Caroline. I sent my mum a couple texts bitching her out asking how she could forget about Caroline’s birthday, she didn’t reply, but I wasn’t expecting a reply anyways. God I miss Caroline so much. My heart literally ached with every sob that left my body as I sat on the floor with the scrapbook in my hands. 

I decide to put the pictures down, and get myself up. Kip was right, maybe moving forward wouldn’t be such a bad thing after all. But there is no way in hell i’m ever going to forget about Caroline, never. I get myself up, and wipe the tears from my eyes. I grab the fresh daffodils on my table that I got just for today, and head out the front door towards Caroline’s Creek. 

(Justin)

As I walk out my front door and look around at my new wealthy neighborhood before my eyes, i’m almost shocked that I haven’t been mauled by paparazzi yet.. this is something I could get used to. I guess all these people are rich enough to realize all I am is another person. 

I glance across the street over at that one beautiful girl’s house- Nadia’s house. Her name stuck to my heart like glue the moment it left her lips- those lips; so lush and tender. Something about that girl, was so.. so.. different I guess you could say. The way she had herself so collected was something I don’t see often. She’s cute. Really cute. Maybe moving here wouldn’t be so bad after all, seeing that gorgeous smile on a daily basis sounded perfect to me.

As I walk down the street, observing the different mansion like houses, and the occasional people outside of them, I try to get a feel of my new neighborhood. Knowing Nadia was my neighbor, lots of wealthy old rich folks, trophy wives, some dudes that looked about my age, and plenty of gorgeous girls- again, maybe moving here wouldn’t be so bad after all. 

I’m walking further into my neighborhood. The sun is shining on my face, no paparazzi in sight; i’m feeling incredible. It’s all a little too good to be true. 

I come up to a creek that I notice off to the far side of the road. I make my way towards it, and slowly and cautiously inch near it trying not to fall in. I pick up a twig and toss it in the swiftly moving water. I watch it as the water catches the twig, and it floats gracefully down the creek. As the twig floats further and further down the creek, I see some brightly covered flowers, some cards, candles, and even a few pictures on the creek bank not too far up ahead. 

Caroline Allen. I remember some of the neighbor folks were telling me and mom about a girl named Caroline Allen being murdered, and some creek being named after her. Poor girl. 

I walk near the shrine looking ensemble on the creek bank. Tons of different flowers caught my eye, it was beautiful. This girl was truly loved. What a terrible loss. Looking down at the few pictures of her present scattered around, she was beautiful. Absolutely breathe taking. She looked familiar in a sense.. really familiar the more I glanced at her picture.. she had the type of beauty where you wouldn’t just forget the name that belonged to that angelic face. 

My eyes wander around the memorial, and my ears are filled with the sound of the creek water flowing rapidly. I suddenly hear footsteps and turn towards them immediately. A beautiful average height girl with a short black dress on, holding daffodils stood before me. Nadia. 

I feel my heart speed up as she notices me. I get the nerve to say hello. “Hey gorgeous” I smile a genuine grin, as I look into her beautiful blue eyes. I was genuinely happy to see her. 

Nadia smiles at me. “Hey Justin.” Hearing those words come from her lips made me feel weak at my knees. 

(Nadia)

What the hell is he doing here? I secretly try to deny the fact that i’m excited to see him to myself. I look away from his big brown eyes, and kneel down close to a picture of Caroline on the ground. I kiss the daffodils, and lay them next to her picture gently. Looking around, seeing all the other flowers, and other things Caroline’s friends and members of our family brought to her memorial brings a feeling of contempt to my aching heart. See sisssy, no one will ever forget about you.

“it’s truly awful what happened to that girl Caroline.. tell me they’ve at least caught the prick who did this to her.” Justin says to me. The look on his face makes me believe that he actually truly cares. He’s sweet. 

”.. unfortunately no.. I have faith that they will though.” I reply to Justin. 

Justin nods and looks around at all the things left for Caroline. I keep my eyes on Caroline’s picture. I may not be looking at Justin, but I can feel his eyes suddenly on me.

“Did you know the girl?” 

I look up at Justin and see him looking down at me. I feel the hot tears rushing to my eyes, I manage to break a small smile then say “Caroline was my sister.” 

Justin’s face suddenly looks as if he had just seen a ghost. He feels awful, it’s obvious. I feel kind of bad, I didn’t intend to make him feel shitty for not knowing that the dead murdered girl is my sister. 

“Nadia… i’m so so SO sorry.. I had no idea.. really i’m such a fucking idoit, i’m sor-” I cut Justin off.

“Justin! It’s okay. Really it’s fine.” I say as I get up from the grounded getting closer to him. 

Without saying a word, I suddenly feel Justin’s arms wrap around me tightly. He rubs my back as I rest my head on his shoulder. Tears stream down my face, and get his shirt a bit wet. He doesn’t seem to mind though.

“Nadia, just think- you have the most beautiful, most amazing, guardian angel watching over you..” Justin whispered to me softly as he began to stroke my hair.

I had never thought of it like that. Hearing Justin say those words bring me a sudden sense of closure of my sister’s death that i’ve never been able to feel before. Tears continued to stream down my face, but Justin’s arms never let me go. My arms never stopped holding onto him either.

His smell; his cologne smelt amazing. His firm body against mine made me feel safe and secure. The way his whispering voice could calm me down and bring me inner peace. Quite puzzling, but absolutely extraordinary. This boy is extraordinary. Whoa there Nadia, don’t be getting all attached. No way. No fucking way… but the way he’s making butterflies flutter around inside my tummy, and the way he’s making my head spin certainly isn’t helping me keep in mind my no-attachment-rule.

Whether I like it or not, i’ve gotten myself into something. It’s becoming obvious that there isn’t going to be any easy way out either. 

THE ONLY EXCEPTION.♥/// Chapter one- Love isn’t real.

HELLO DARLINGS! So i’m really happy you guys are liking my story When Two Worlds Collide, that story isn’t finished yet but i’m going to start writing another story (: So the main character in this story is a girl named Nadia Allen. I’m in love with the name Nadia, so I wanted to make a main character named Nadia (: hahah anywhooo, this story is going to be written a little differently than my other story. TELL ME WHAT YOU THINK! Don’t be afraid to be a total bitch and tell me it sucks, I like honest feedback. love you guys<3 xo

“I’m so lucky to be able to call you mine, I don’t think you understand how much you mean to me.. I love you.. I love you so much Nadia.. ” Chris said to me as he looked down at me in his arms. 

I look away from the Atlanta night sky with stars scattered across the darkness. I look up at Chris and our eyes lock. “Chris..” I say smiling at him, looking deep into his beautiful blue eyes. “I love you to.” 

I meant it when I said I loved Chris. I thought he meant it when he told me he loved me to. Boy was I wrong. Chris and I dated for a year, he was what they call my “first love”. I know high school relationships usually don’t last, but at one point in my life I remember I saw so much in Chris. I never thought he’d hurt me or cause me the pain like he did. Chris and I had it all. All of my girl friends who didn’t have boyfriends used to be so jealous of what Chris and I had, because it was perfect. That is, until Chris got into drugs.

During the last few months of our relationship, Chris got into some serious stuff- Chris started doing cocaine. He lied to me about doing it to, he knew it would ruin us. When I found out Chris had gotten into coke, I was destroyed. I didn’t want to lose him, it was impossible for me to walk away. So I tried to help him stop, and get help. I knew all along that the chances of him actually stopping were slim, but I couldn’t just walk away. After about two months of getting pushed away, lied to, and being treated like shit- I had enough. Saying goodbye to Chris was the hardest thing i’ve ever done. We’ve been separated for about four months now, and I haven’t been the same since. I used to believe in love, now, I think of it as complete bullshit. Ever heard the saying “I love you has 8 letters, but so does bullshit?” Well it’s absolutely, one hundred percent, without a doubt true. 

I’m Natasha Allen. I go by Nadia though. In brief, I have big blue eyes, and long darkish brown hair. I don’t think i’m ugly, but I don’t think i’m Miley-Cyrus-gorgeous. I’m 5’5, and 102lbs. The first thing people usually notice about me is how big my boobs are (34C to be exact) and how skinny I am. I’m underweight; not because I have an eating disorder, but because I just forget to eat sometimes, I have a lot of things on my mind and food usually just isn’t one of them. Things on my mind usually consist of my parent’s divorce, Chris, and the murder of my 18 year old sister Caroline. I’m 16 years old, and very very mature for my age. I’ve gone through more than any person should ever have to go through in a lifetime, but I like to think that all my experiences have only made me stronger. 

“Sweetie, i’m going to Donn’s house. Want to come?” my mum asks me sweetly through the door. Her gentle voice wakes me from my sleep, and I rub my eyes.

“No thanks, I kinda just want to hang out with Sam today.” I reply to my mum.

I lied. Sam has to work until late tonight, she works for a successful local restaurant and it takes up a lot of her time on the weekends. Sam is my best friend, she’s been my best friend since i’ve moved here, but i’ll tell you more about her later.

Anyways, back to Donn. I hate going to Donn’s house. Donn Avery is one of my mum’s best friends. Her son, Tim, dated my sister Caroline for three years. Their family was just as heartbroken as ours when Caroline got murdered less than a year ago. Whenever I see their family, it floods my heart with sadness as I think of Caroline more frequently when i’m with those people. And to be completely honest, Donn’s other son, Nick, gives me the chills. He’s only a year older than me, making him 17 years old, but he’s got as much facial hair as a 30 year old man. He used to date my best friend Sam, and he used to hit her. But that’s a secret she’s shared with me, and no one else; so i’ve kept it locked in my heart afraid Nick would try to hurt me or Sam if that got out. So I try my best to avoid going over to the Avery’s house.

I manage to get myself up from my bed, and stretch my limbs as I yawn. I walk downstairs and see my mum talking on the phone in the kitchen. 

I walk right past her as if I don’t even see her and open the cabinet to find some Frosted Flakes. As I over hear my mum talking on the phone, it’s obvious she’s talking to her boyfriend Kyle. She always laughs a little too much and gets a smile on her face just at the sound of his name. I miss my dad, but I like Kyle because he makes my mum happy. She deserves someone who can make her smile after everything she’s been through.

“Change your mind about coming over to Donn’s house with me? C’mon you can see Nick and Tim!” my mum asks me as she walks over towards the kitchen table where i’m sitting. 

I shake my head no politely with my mouth full of cereal. My mum giggles a little and then begins walking towards the garage door. On her way out, she begins telling me a number of things, “Nadia don’t forget the cleaning ladies are coming in about an hour, the neighbor boy is coming over in about an hour as well to help clean the pool, and oh yeah! The Markenson’s moved out. We’ve got some new neighbors, I heard their famous or something? Bye sweetie, love you.” 

“Love you” I reply back to my mum.

I wouldn’t be surprised if some celebrity moved in down the street. I live in a nice neighborhood, my mum makes a decent amount of money. She’s in the entertainment business, and helps coordinate events for some big stars. The whole reason we moved to Atlanta was to be closer to mum’s work, and because of my parent’s divorce.

Caroline and I moved with my mum to Atlanta, and to be honest, I don’t know where my dad went. My parents had an awful divorce about five years ago, it tore our family apart. I was always the girl who never thought my family would end up so broken, but it ended up shattering. My dad is an Air Force general, so he was always gone a lot. My poor mum couldn’t take it anymore, so she decided to leave him. Caroline and I were so mad at our mum for splitting up our family, but as time went on and we realized how little our dad cared for our family, and we began to understand. My dad doesn’t care to contact me, email me, call me, or anything. In fact, the last memory I have of my dad is of him leaving early one winter morning. When he said goodbye to me that morning, I didn’t know that’d be the last time we’d ever speak. 

As I said before, I haven’t talked to my dad since. We have no idea where he’s at, we have no way of trying to communicate with him. He forgot about me, and my family after the divorce. It’s something i’ve come to realize. Me, Caroline, and my mum only had eachother from then on out. Until Caroline was murdered less than a year ago. Now it’s just me and my mum.

At school, if you didn’t know my whole life story, you’d think I was perfectly fine. Boys like me, i’ve got a decent amount of friends, and other than my difficult past, i’m just a typical teenage girl. Sam is basically what gets me through the day. I don’t know what i’d do without her. She’s the only person I know I can trust. I’ve tried dating boys, but i’ve never really gotten attached to anyone since Chris. After my dad abandoned me, Chris broke my heart, and the murder of my sister Caroline- I don’t allow myself to get close to anyone anymore. I don’t think I could handle any more heartbreak and disappointment. I don’t even believe in love anymore. 

After finishing up my cereal, I hear the door bell ring. It must be the cleaning ladies. I walk to the door and greet the nice ladies. As I hold the door open for them, I glance over to the house across the street. A big moving truck is parked outside and about five men are carrying furniture into the house. One of the ladies catches me observing the new neighbors move in and says, “You’re a lucky girl Nadia.. that Bieber kid is moving in, he’s a cutie.” one of the ladies say as she flashes a friendly smile.

“What? No way.” I reply back finding that too hard to believe. 

“I’m dead serious Nadia, go look!” she says as she points towards the house.

I walk out my front door, still in my pajamas, but I don’t care. She was probably just kidding there is no way Justin freaking Bieber could be my new next door neighbor. When I said I wouldn’t doubt it if a celebrity moved in, I didn’t mean someone as big as Justin Bieber.

I walk out closer to the street, and pretend to be getting the mail from my mailbox. I look over my shoulder as I open the mailbox, and notice a somewhat tall boy with a shorter woman. The boy shakes his sandy brownish-blonde hair from his face as he looks down at the lady and smiles. Still smiling, he catches sight of me. Holy shit, it is Justin Bieber. I can feel my heart beating so fast, as if it’s about to explode from my chest.

I awkwardly look away as he catches me starring at him and pretend to be looking in my mailbox again. 

“Hey!” I hear a boy’s voice say from behind me, I turn around to put a face to the unfamiliar voice.

Holy fuck. Justin Bieber is standing next to me, at my mailbox. I look like shit. I just woke up, i’m not even wearing a bra. 

“Hi” I respond sweetly with a smile. “You’re moving in?” I say as I look away from his gorgeous big brown eyes and at his new house. I can see why so many girls have Bieberfever, Justin without a doubt is sexy. He’s legit flawless. 

“Yeah I am! Hahah, what are you doing?” Justin responds to my question then asking me a question as he looks at my open empty mailbox. 

“Just getting the mail!” I say back to Justin. Phew, good thing I had an ‘excuse’ to go outside, or else I would’ve just made myself look like a total creep.

“The mail? Mail isn’t delivered on Sundays.. hahahha” Justin replies. He’s laughing and gives a playful smile.

I can’t think of a response so I just laugh along with him. Shit, so embarrassing. First time meeting the guy and he thinks i’m a total creep.

“Justin! Come have some lunch!” the lady Justin was talking to before yells from a distance.

“Kay one sec momma!” Justin responds as he turns around to face his mum.

“That’s my momma, Pattie, well i’ve got to go- but hey, what’s your name?” Justin says as he holds his hand out. I shake it while responding, “I’m Nadia- Nadia Allen.” Justin smiles as my hand shakes his. His hands are warm and soft. They bring chills to my body as I feel them touching mine. I’ve never been obsessed with a celebrity, and I most certainly don’t have “bieberfever”, I wouldn’t even call myself a “Belieber”; but I gotta admit, the kid does have talent, and it was unreal getting to meet him like this. 

“I’m Justin.. nice meeting you Nadia” Justin replies. Justin begins to walk away. He looks over his shoulder and gives a smile. His smile is breathtaking, the kind of smile where it’s impossible to not smile back when seeing it. Without knowing it, i’m smiling back at him and waving goodbye. I quickly shut my mailbox and begin to walk back into my house. Shutting my front door quickly behind me as I walk into my house. I then collapse on the chair near the door.

Not only is Justin amazingly good looking, but Justin seems so different than other boys.. so genuine and something you don’t find everyday.

No Nadia, stop it. Love isn’t real. So stop these stupid little 2nd grade crush feelings. Justin Bieber sure is charming, but i’m not going to allow myself to open up to more hurt. Not even for mister heart-throb Justin Bieber. 

Chapter thirtysix- Broken wings.

You wake up the next morning in an unfamiliar bed. You remember you and Justin fooled around in Claire’s guest house last night and then you remember the two of you fell asleep. You feel a smile appear on your face as you realize you weren’t dreaming- last night was real. Justin and you are together again. The smile on your face slowly disappears as you realize you don’t feel the warmth of Justin’s body next to yours anymore. You look sit up in bed, covering your naked body with a sheet. You see your clothes on the floor a couple feet away, so you get up and put them back on your body. They aren’t wet anymore, but your dress is definitely ruined. Oh well. “Justin..?” you say loudly. You don’t see his clothes on the floor, you begin to feel confused. Did he just leave? What the hell. You walk towards the door leading to Claire’s backyard to go look for Justin some more. As you begin to turn the door knob, you can feel someone turning the door knob on the other side of the door. You jump back a little as it startles you and look up to see Justin smiling at you with a plastic bag and some flowers in his hand. “You scared the shit outta me Justin!” you say as you laugh a little while giving him a playful punch to his shoulder. Justin walks up next to you and plants a kiss on your forehead. “I’m sorry sweetheart. Goodmorning sunshine” Justin says as he puts the bag on the table. He keeps the flowers in his hand and then holds them out in front of you. “Here babe, I got you these. I thought they were beautiful, and I thought you might like them.” Justin says with a grin. You take the flowers and hold them up to your nose and smell them. He got you about 6 red roses; they are beautiful and smell fresh. You smile as you set them on the table. You jump on Justin and kiss his cheek. “You’re too cute, didcha know that?” you whisper playfully into his ear. He laughs a little and responds “Yeah I am pretty fucking adorable huh?” Justin says as he spins you around a little. You both giggle. Justin sets you down and reaches for the plastic bag he set on the table. “What’s in there?” you ask trying to look inside the bag to see the inside. “Lunch! I got us some italian food. Wanna get outta here and go eat downtown? There is a carnival going on tonight to if you wanna go, it sounds kinda fun..” Justin says to you. He’s adorable. You love how you wake up, and he comes in with flowers and a whole day plan for the two of you. You grab the sides of his face and press your lips against his. You can feel him smile while the two of you kiss. “So is that a yes?” Justin replies to you as he slowly opens his eyes after the kiss ends. 

You and Justin are in his range rover as the two of you drive downtown. The windows are down and the cool breeze wakes you up. The sun is shining, and the air already feels hot even though it’s early in the day. You look down at your ruined dress and high heels- there is no way you’re walking around in this all day. You look over to Justin. He has on some sunglasses, which make him look very sexy. He’s wearing the same thing that he was wearing yesterday, but the rain didn’t seem to ruin any of his clothes. You look out the window to the mirror next to the window, your long hair looks curly and wavy. It doesn’t look too bad. You don’t have much makeup left on, but you look fine. “Do you think we could hit up a clothes store downtown before we eat?” you say looking at Justin with a smile. His eyes stay glued to the road, but he smiles as he replies “Baby, you look beautiful. You don’t need to change.” you smile at his sweet charming remark, but you still refuse to walk around all day looking like the bride of Frankenstein. “Justyyyy, pleasee? My dress is ruined. I’ll be real quick, I promise.” you say in a whining tone. “Alright, whatever you want babe.” Justin replies to you with a smile. ‘Hold it Against Me’ by Briteny Spears suddenly comes on the radio. You gasp as you say “Ah love this song!” you begin singing along to the song and Justin joins you. Being with Justin really makes you wish time had broken wings. You wish you could just pause, and live your life here in this moment with Justin forever. 

You and Justin are now walking on a boardwalk down by the beach. You just got done getting some new clothes, and getting rid of that ruined dress. You’re now wearing a vintage short purple beach summer dress. You have a black ribbon tied around your waist to add some style, and some black gladiator sandals you picked up as well. You pulled your hair back into a messy bun, allowing some pieces of your curly hair to naturally fall out, and you’ve got on some big black sunglasses. You over all look really cute for just putting this little outfit together in about 20 minutes. It’s really hot outside, so Justin decided to get some new clothes to. He’s now wearing some plaid billabong beach shorts, and a white muscle shirt with some tan flip flops. He looks amazing, as usual. You and Justin are now walking hand and hand just observing all the people that walk by the two of you. No one seems to notice who the two of you are yet, and you’re happy, it’s never fun being chased around and harassed by paparazzi. People are eating at restaurants nearby, some girls are tanning on the beach, some tall tan muscular boys are playing volleyball on the beach, everybody seems to be enjoying the day. You and Justin walk further and further out onto the boardwalk and spot a picnic table close to the edge by the water. “Let’s sit there babe!” Justin says to you as he pulls you near the table. You sit across from eachother. Justin then pulls out the italian food he had bought earlier from the plastic bag, and the two of you eat and enjoy eachother’s presence. 

“Chuck Norris is the reason why Waldo is hiding..” Justin says to you as he goes on about his Chuck Norris jokes. You laugh at each joke he tells you. He gets so much satisfaction from making you laugh and from you enjoying his jokes. It’s freaking adorable. The two of you are now done with lunch and start walking towards the beach again. More people are out on the beach than there were before, and the sun is higher in the sky. It’s insanely hot. You interrupt Justin’s joke telling as you see a lady selling icecream nearby. “Ou want some icecream love?” you ask Justin. Justin’s eyes search for the icecream lady and then nods as he sees what your looking at. “Yeah sure baby, that sounds great.” Justin replies to you as he pulls out his wallet. You push his wallet away and pull out your wallet. “No baby! I want to pay.” Justin laughs a little as he pulls you in close to him. He looks down at you and says softly, “You’re too cute ______. But you’re my girlfriend, i’m supposed to spoil you. Let me do my job.” you look up at Justin and kiss the tip of his nose and then reply “Well too bad, i’m buying you some icecream, and that’s that.” you say in an assertive way. You smile big and you see him shake his head as he follows you over towards the icecream. “Damn. I think that’s pretty sexy ______. The way you like to take control” you giggle a little and stick your tongue out playfully at Justin as you continue to walk towards the lady selling the icecream. ///////// “Here baby, hold my icecream real quick while I get my money out.” you say to Justin handing him your icecream cone. You got mint chocolate chip icecream and you can’t wait to eat it. He takes it and holds it in his hand while he eats his icecream cone with his other hand. You hand the lady some money and begin to walk away. You look down at Justin’s hand holding your icecream, the icecream has melted a little and dripped all over his arm. Justin looks down at his arm as you reach for your icecream and says “Sorry.. i’m a little too hot. it’s not the smartest idea to ask me to hold your popsicles, icecream—” you interrupt him by playfully shoving his icecream cone in his face to shut him up. You both laugh. Justin has chocolate icecream all over his nose and his mouth. You continue to eat your icecream in between laughs as Justin wipes the icecream off his face. You begin to walk away quickly, you know Justin is going to try to get you back. Justin is a prankster. He doesn’t just let people get away with shit, he gets even- even at his girlfriend. Justin finishes wiping the icecream off his face and notices you walking away quickly. You’ve managed to walk pretty far away and you’re now beginning to walk on the beach. Justin runs after you, you laugh and start running as you see him coming after you. You drop your icecream on accident, but you don’t care. He’s close enough that you can hear him laughing and telling you that you’re gonna get it. You run around dodging all the people on the beach as the two of you near the water. You begin to run in the water, but the water slows you down. Justin has finally caught up to you. You feel his arms grab you from behind. You try to break free of his hold, and the struggle causes the ocean water to splash around the two of you. You give up. The two of you are laughing and he forces you to turn around and face towards him. He holds you close to him and stops laughing as he looks down at you. He becomes genuine when saying “_______ did you think I was going to let you run away from me again? No way. Don’t think i’ll ever let you get away that easy again..” You smile up at Justin. You feel yourself begin to tear up, happy tears, not sad tears. You’re overwhelmed with feelings of joy as you realize how truly amazing Justin is. You love how even though the two of you are over that stupid breakup fight, he brings it up just to remind you that he’s learned from his mistakes. You press your lips against his as you run your fingers through his hair. The sun beating down on the two of you, the ocean water below your feet, Justin’s arms around you- the moment doesn’t seem like it can get any more perfect.