Chapter three- I wanna know you.
Justin and I stand by Caroline’s Creek for a good 20 minutes. Justin literally just comforted me while I cried on his shoulder for 20 minutes, and I just met the dude the other day. He’s truly a sweetheart.
Justin and I let go of eachother and look into eachother’s eyes for a moment.
“Thank you Justin.. for being there for me..” I say breaking the silence. I truly was grateful. He actually did make me feel a lot better surprisingly.
Justin and I near our houses. The walk home was fun, I really feel like I know Justin better after talking with him as we walked home about stuff that didn’t have to relate to Caroline, it was nice to think about something else. He mainly told me stories about his World Tour, and people in his life- some names I remember him mentioning a lot were Scooter, Chaz, Ryan, his grandpa & grandma, his siblings; Jaxon & Jazy, etc. I’m glad the two of us didn’t talk much about my fucked up life, I don’t think I would’ve shared much of it with him anyways.
I look over at my house, and see the empty drive way. Shocker. Mum is out with her boyfriend. I look back to Justin and see his warm smile. His smile is so comforting, it literally brings chills to my body. He’s so flawless.. so perfect.
“I’ve got to help my mom make dinner, her friends are coming over tonight to see our new house..” Justin says to me while he rolls his eyes a little. “.. but we should hang out sometime Nadia.. you’re a really deep person, you’re real.. I like that.” Justin then adds. The smile on his face becomes bigger, showing off his beautiful white smile. Eeeeeepppp.
“Yeah, I guess you’re aight Bieber” I respond playfully. Am I flirting? Ah stop it Nadia, don’t go down this road.
It’s like a war going on within me, half of me wants me to go for Justin; get to know him, and possibly even fall in love with him if that was even an option.. then the other half of me wants to run away, and hide; Chris hurt me more than anyone will ever be able to understand.
Plus, as i’ve said before, i’ve learned it’s best not to get attached to people.. I just end up getting hurt.. ex. my dad, Chris, Caroline.. I wish my life and I weren’t so complicated, goddamnit.
Justin laughs a little at my flirty response. “So am I worthy of getting Ms. Nadia Allen’s phone number?” He’s good. With that warm smile, and naturally flirtatious lingo, he was a pro at making a girl’s heart melt in the palm of his hand. He was really starting to get to me despite the war going on within me.
“Hmmmmm, I suppose so” I say as I reach for his phone I see in his hand. I type in my number, and then hand Justin back his phone. I look up at him, and examine his flawless facial features. Our eyes then lock; I sware it was magical.
“Text me sometime Bieber.” I say as I walk away after flashing him one last smile.
“Count on it Allen” Justin responds to me. He giggles a little, and I can’t help but to turn around one last time before walking into my house.
To my surprise, he was doing the exact thing. Justin was still staring at me, smiling.
skdfhlksjhalkjfakjhfkajshdfkajshdfkajhdfkajhsfkajfak. That’s what I felt like just then. It was a good feeling though. I wasn’t expecting to be feeling anything like this, especially not today, I really don’t understand this at all- these crazy feelings Justin is giving me.
I walk in my house, and shut the door. I stand with my back against the front door, smiling. Score. I got Nadia’s number. She was being flirty too I think? That’s another thing I like about her.. I can’t figure her out. Usually girls are all over me, and I can easily tell if they want me or not. But Nadia, I have no idea if she’s interesting in me or not.
I look down at my phone in my hand. Should I text her? No. Not yet. C’mon Justin, keep your cool.
I feel the front door knob begin to turn, and I move away from the door quickly. I then see my mom standing there in front of me outside of the open front door.
“Justin! Come help me carry in the groceries? I still have to make dinner for tonight!” my mom says to me.
“Yeah, I guess.”
I walk out the front door following my mom to her car. As I walk outside, I take a quick glance at Nadia’s house. Nadia. Just knowing the most beautiful girl i’ve ever seen is so close, gives me an indescribable feeling. I need to get to know this girl, I want to know every single detail about Nadia Allen. In fact, I think I might just want Nadia Allen.
I sit on my bed and look at myself in the mirror fixing my hair. When is he going to text me? Is he ever going to text me? Stop thinking about it Nadia, you shouldn’t care.. oh who the hell am I trying to fool, I want him to text me more than anything else. My train of thought is broken off by the sound of my front door opening.
”.. mumm?” I yell.
I hear footsteps rushing up my stairs. “Guess again” Sam.
I suddenly see my best friend Sam standing in my bed room doorway smiling at me as she catches her breathe.
Samantha Larson. She goes by Sam, if anyone calls her Samantha she gets pissed. Sam is literally the most beautiful girl i’ve ever seen, it kind of sucks when we go out together, the guys usually notice her before they even take a glance at me. Sam has shoulder length beach blonde hair, green eyes, and a smile to death for. Her nose is pierced, and she’s one of the few people I know that can actually pull off a nose piercing. She’s thin, curvy, and is developed- big ass, and big tits. Not as big as mine, but still big tits. Sam is the only person I trust in this world, I know I can count on her always. We know everything about eachother, I love how well we understand one another. Sam is kind of a slut, but I love her anyways. I couldn’t ask for a better best friend.
“Hey Nads.. gimme a hug. You doin okay? I know today is rough day for ya..” Sam says to me as she plants herself next to me on my bed. Sam wraps her arms around me and I smell her strong perfume. That’s another thing about Sam, she always smells amazing.
“Yeah actually i’m doing better than I thought I would be” I reply to Sam in a reassuring way. I hug my best friend back as I feel her arms wrapped around me.
“Good. I’m happy to hear that! I stopped by the creek and placed some daffodils there, I know they were Caroline’s favorite.” Sam says to me sweetly. Sam really does know how to make me feel better.
“Where’s your mommma?” Sam adds as she lets go of me.
“Guess..” I reply bitterly.
“With what’s his face? Kole..?”
“Kyle. Haa, as if it matters though..” I reply correcting Sam. We both giggle a little. Suddenly Sam shoots up from the bed and covers her mouth with her hands as she jumps up and down.
“Dude!” she says. Sam is excited.. new boyfriend or something maybe?
“What weirdo?” I say as I laugh at her jumping up and down in front of me.
“Not sure if you know this.. but JUSTIN BIEBER IS YOUR FUCKING NEIGHBOR! As I was walking in your house.. he was helping his mom carry in groceries.. not joke.” Sam says to me excited yet completely serious.
“Yeah I know, I met him, he’s nice.” I say back to Sam, still giggling at how excited she is. Sam’s mouth drops.
“WHY DIDN’T YA TELL ME BIOTCH?! JUSTIN MOTHER EFFING BIEBER? I mean c’mon Nads!” Sam says jokingly.
“I don’t know, I had other things on my mind..” I say as I look at the scrapbooks containing pictures of Caroline and I. I feel my heart sink in my chest, and my body get heavy. Heartache; a feeling I was quite used to by now.
Sam nods her head, and looks away, pretending to be looking at something on my wall.
“So you crashing here tonight? I’ve got a ton of chick flicks recorded we should watch” I ask Sam, trying to break the unwanted silence.
“Chyeahh, sounds good.”
A movie night with my best friend was just what I needed. Sam plops her slender body onto my love sac in front of my tv, and I turn on the tv.
The sun is shining through the window, hurting my eyes from it’s brightness. Chris and I are in his room, while his parent’s are away on vacation. I feel Chris’s arms hug my waist from behind.
Chris presses his lips against my cheek and slowly moves his lips to my ear. “Nadia want to know something?” Chris whispers to me. I hold onto his arms around me and giggle as I reply “Hmm, what?”
“I love you. I’m in love you. I’ve never loved anyone like I love you.. and I want to show it to you..” Chris says to me seductively. I suddenly feel his hands moving up and down my arms. Chris then slowly pulls the straps of my tank top off my shoulders. I feel my heart beating fast. I know what he wants to do; I wasn’t sure if Chris and I were ready, but I wanted to do it to. Not exactly at that moment, but if that’s what Chris wanted, I was willing to do anything for him, he had sort of been pressuring me into having sex with him for awhile. I had been saying no to him, but that day, I knew I was going to give into those blue eyes.
“Chris..” I say as I turn around so Chris and I are facing eachother. I wrap my arms around his neck, and press my forehead against his. I stare into his beautiful blue eyes then add, “If you think that’s how we can show eachother how much we love eachother.. then I want to..” I reply unsure.
Chris presses his lips to mine, and I feel his tongue trying to enter my mouth. Chris and I begin to kiss passionately and hard. Chris pushes my clothes off slowly. Without even knowing it, Chris and I somehow back up against his bed. I fall back onto it, and he lays himself on top of me.
I knew what was about to happen, and I was scared. I had never had sex before. But if Chris wanted to do it, i’d do anything to make him happy.
I suddenly wake up and sit straight up in bed.
I’m breathing heavy, and I feel a cold sweat all over my body. I begin to cry silently to myself as I think of the nightmare I just had.